It definitely has been a long year, 2020 for me has been that movie where you never know what to expect and just when you think things will end okay you get another curve ball that completely knocks you off of your feet. This is a gratitude post to everyone one of my readers, for taking time out of your busy schedules to read my thoughts, views or things that I am up to, I appreciate each and every single one of you.
My husband found out that a friend of his passed away a few weeks ago and he was torn up about it, deeply. When he told me, he said, āyou remember my friend I told you about who asked if you had really done the things you said you did in your blog post? He passed away.ā It was not the news of his passing that broke my heart the most, but the way he said it. He looked forward to each and every Sunday to have conversations with him over life and everything else as well as my blog post.
I had a hard time writing todayās post, because of how hurt my husband has been by the death. I am pained by his sadness but I am also pained by death, because it means someone who found a giggle, laugh, strength, motivation, hope and or healing and more through my words has also bid farewell to me even if I only knew and met them over these words I put out to be able to cope with everything life throws my way.
In the year 2020, I have cried. Tears of sadness, tears of joy and tears of gratitude. An emotional roller coaster is what this year has been and mixing that with the emotional roller coaster that comes with battling mental health I can definitely say it has been an exhausting year. I lost my maternal grandmother this year, thatās been the loudest of my sad cries.
It hasnāt been all bad though, I have smiled like a lovechild too this year. I gave birth to my son, the most amazingly beautiful creation to me under the heavens, heās asleep right now, next to his father, the sight of them sleeping always makes my heart flutter with joy. I guess it is because they look alike, it is like watching a younger and older version of the same person. I love you boys so much.
I also got married to my best friend and it was everything I ever dreamed of and more, picturesque. He is always there when I need him, to make me laugh, smile, encourage, cheer on, listen or simply be silly with. To think at one point in time I had given up on love and had shut my heart off to it, then along he came, u Mduduzi wami, now, let me not get all poetic talking about him because I could on forever.
So, to my readers, those that I have met personally, interacted with over the comments section of this blog post and any other social media platform, I love you and appreciate you. If you achieved a goal you had set for yourself, be it reading 1 book, running a marathon, graduating, buying a house or car or getting that job, CONGRATULATIONS, HALALA YOU DID IT! I am proud of you and wish you nothing but success in each and every single thing you do.
If you lost a loved one this year, lost your job, car, business, home or maybe your marriage, relationship and or friendship, I am sorry. Troubles donāt always last, one day, you will look back at these very moments and draw lessons from it that will shape the person you will be or the mark you will leave in this world. Grieve, heal and try to survive and should it ever get too much, remember, it is okay to cry, so you can go ahead and let it out again until the remnants of sadness within you no longer bring you to your tears.
May 2021 be kinder to us all. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you all.
With Love, from
A believer of healing the world, one word at a time.
Novelty Ink 