Of wingless angels…

“Thandaza wena (You pray).”

“Hayi, wena nguwe othandazayo lamuhla (no, you’re the one who’s praying today).”

“Ulamanga, izolo yimi engithandazileyo Mduduzi (you’re lying, I’m the one who prayed yesterday Mduduzi).”

We play around a lot, most of our friends refer to us as clowns, but I knew we were both feeling low and praying was going to be the hardest thing to do that night and as we started our back and forth of who should pray which we always do when our spirits are low, I was feeling sleepy and knowing us, this could have gone on for long so I decided to pray.

There is so much going on in the world right now and even more so in Zimbabwe. Prices are changing on a daily basis and yet salaries remain the same, and with the lockdown, one is lucky to even receive their full pay which in all honesty doesn’t amount to much. Due to the lockdown, and trouble with moving around we had to pay rent for 2 months in one go, when you’re earning RTGS and your rent is in USD I’m sure you know how much of a struggle this is more so when your salary is only a quarter of the rent.

It’s winter now and the mornings and evenings are very chilly. Our son is growing by the day and when it comes to his height, it’s honestly hard to keep up. I intended to go to the baby shop and get him some winter clothes that fit with the money we ended up paying the advance rent with because the ones he has are now either way too big or too small and a few are a perfect fit. With pay day being 15 days away I was feeling bummed that I would have to wait that long to get him the clothes and I was not sure that the prices would still be the same by the time I went to buy them because even USD prices are being changed of late.

As I was praying, Mathew 6 vs 26-34 kept on ringing in my mind and it was as if the Holy Spirit was trying to communicate something to me, so I stopped praying for close to 2 minutes and when I resumed with praying there was an Indescribable excitement in my heart. I began to give Thanksgiving, I thanked God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit over and over again and proclaimed that God loves me more than the birds and because He is not man that He should lie I was going to stop worrying. Without even realizing it, I broke into song whilst praying and I felt my spirit be at peace. We switched off the light and went to bed.

When I woke up the following morning, I grabbed a hold of my phone and checked my email first and then my Twitter and someone I had had a conversation with a few days before pertaining to publishing was asking for my details. As I was giving my details to her, I assumed she wanted to pay for publishing services she wished for me to render unto her. Around midday, I got a notification for a money transfer from her and I was puzzled by the amount as well as the fact that I hadn’t given her an invoice yet. So I sent her a message to ask which services she would require from us, I was happy that at least money was coming into the business.

Her response shocked me for the greater part of the day and as I am typing this, I will admit that I am still very shocked.

“Oh it’s just a thank you from me…I realised you gave me a pretty detailed consultation without asking or charging me anything. It’s for being willing to help.”

All I managed to type in response to that was “aah love” and crying emojis. I put my phone down, said thank you God and began to cry. Mdu walked in from the shops and found me in tears and worry riddled his face as he asked me what was wrong and all I could manage to say was, “God is good”. After I had regained my composure I then told him what had just happened and he smiled and said, “thank you Holy Spirit”. I went back online and told the lady how she had just become my testimony without her knowing. When I told her this, she in turn told me that she knew that it was God’s doing because the amount she initially wanted to send refused to send thrice and it kept telling her to send more, something it has never done before, and when she finally entered the amount she sent it went through that very instant. I’ll have you know, the amount is exactly the same amount as the rent money I was sad over.

Maybe you think it’s just a coincidence, but I know the power of God when I see it at play and to Sharon, thank you so much for being the angel God used to show His glory unto me. I am glad that not only my faith was encouraged but even yours. For the other things we talked about and the words you said, I am grateful and I appreciate you, you’ve given me a greater drive to continue to be the voice for the voiceless women. May God increase from whence you giveth from Madawu.